Excerpts from a book I'll never write

You know that feeling when you know something’s going to happen and you feel helpless to stop it? When you see the car trying to break but it’s inevitably going to crash, the plate falling off the counter but you’re just a little bit too far to catch it, or when someone trips over their feet a split second before you were about to warn them of the uneven ground. It always happens in slow motion and there’s always that sinking feeling in your stomach, like a lead weight. Leading up to my most recent neurosurgeons appointment that lead weight followed me around constantly. The main issue with chiari is that because part of the brain is coming out of your skull it prevents the cerebrospinal spinal fluid (CSF) from flowing correctly between your brain and spinal cord, and this can cause headaches, especially when sneezing, coughing, or laughing as these all raise CSF pressure and because of the blockage it can’t equalise properly, difficulty swallowing is an issue, pain in the neck ar